Sadie {month 16}

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Sadie {month 15}





Sadie {month 14}



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Sadie {month 13}





life lately {since Sadie turned 1}

Sadie turned ONE and suddenly our lives turned upside down {again}. Without us even knowing it, we said “goodbye” to the baby phase, and “hello” to raising a toddler.

I’ve got a lot of blog post catching up to do – but for now – here’s a look at LIFE LATELY {through pictures}:

our gale {baby nurse}

A few months before Sadie was due to arrive,  we traveled to NYC to meet with our soon-to-be baby nurse: Gale.  I wrote about our visit on my blog post: week 26…..

“We met with our baby nurse who will be coming from NYC {baby nurses don’t exist the same way in NC like they do in Manhattan, and believe it or not – it’s actually cheaper to have one come from NYC rather than hire one from an agency in NC!} Her name is Gale, and she’s originally from Trinidad. I loved when she asked us, “do you know anything about taking care of babies?”, in which we responded “no, not at all” and she excitedly responded “oh good, you’re the best kind, I can’t wait to teach you everything!” We. can’t. wait. either.”

Fast forward to today — Gale’s last day with us. I’m so sad. We’re all so sad!

Gale told us that she would teach us everything, and she lived up to that promise. I couldn’t imagine this past year without Gale in our lives. She truly has grown to be a member of our family, and even though she is leaving us, she will always be “our” Gale.

We love you Gale, thank you for everything….from Sadie’s first nights to her first steps, you’ve been there along the way with us. You will truly be missed.


Sadie’s 1st Birthday PARTY {the details}

Originally, I wasn’t going to throw a 1st birthday party at all for Sadie.  And then I decided to have a very small gathering with cake and maybe a few balloons.  But THEN, the event planner in me turned on, and I knew in my heart that I wasn’t capable of throwing just a casual gathering.  {It’s just not in my DNA –  it has to be all or nothing!}

So with that, came Sadie’s PURPLE 1st birthday party.

the invites:



the decor: {– thanks to Etsy, my new favorite party decorating go-to site — and Catering Works for the beautiful purple flowers –}

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the favors:


All of Sadie’s baby friends at the party were boys, so I found these adorable purple ties to give as favors!


the food/drinks:

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family and friends {and of course, the birthday girl!}:








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And last but not least, the cake smash:

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Happy 1st Birthday my sweet Sadie Jane – I hope you enjoyed your 1st of many more birthday parties planned by your mommy!

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{you can view a slideshow with photos & video from the party by clicking here}

Happy Birthday Sadie


Dear Sadie,

One year ago, shortly after 4:20am, I heard your sweet cry for the first time.

Right then and there my life changed.

One year ago, I spent the night staring at your precious face.
One year ago, we became a family of three.

Without a doubt, this past year has been the best year of my life.

Because of you, I am a mom.
Because of you, I know the deepest meaning of love.
Because of you, I strive to be the best I can be.
Because of you, I feel complete.

It’s amazing to see how much you have grown over the past year.

You went from an ittty bitty squishy 7 pound baby to an {almost} walking and talking 1 year old.
You went from sleeping away the day snuggled in your swing, to climbing on me like I’m a jungle gym.
You went from barely noticing objects on your play-mat, to waving bye bye and giving high fives.
You went from baby babbling to saying “da” (for dog) whenever you see Zoe or Lilly.
You went from rolling – to sitting up – to crawling – to standing – to just about walking.
And in the blink of an eye, you went from being a newborn – to an infant – and now to a toddler.

You are such a happy girl – with a {gap toothed} smile that is so lovable.

And that laugh of yours… It’s contagious.

But my absolute favorite are Sadie hugs. I can’t get enough of them!

I made this video for you to look back on one day and enjoy watching moments {} from your first year of life as much as we’ve enjoyed spending them with you!

If the video doesn’t show up, you can view it by clicking here.

Happy 1st birthday, my sweet Sadie Jane!


Sadie {month 11}

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sadie {month 10}

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Milestones for Sadie Jane {the first 10 months}

This week Sadie hit a big milestone…she started crawling! And the sappy mom that I am, started to get emotional as I thought back to all of the milestones that Sadie hit over the past {almost} 10 months. So as she approaches her 1 year birthday, I wanted to take a moment — to pause time — and look back at Sadie’s milestone moments. These milestones aren’t all “textbook” milestone markers, but they were certainly big moments for us!

Sadie’s Milestones (the first 10 months) from stacy black becher on Vimeo.

If the slideshow doesn’t play, you can view it by clicking here.

June 4, 2013 {almost 2 months}
milestone moment: Sadie started following us with her eyes

June 23, 2013 {2 1/2 months}
milestone moment: Sadie started cooing and giggling

June 30, 2013 {almost 3 months}
milestone moment: Sadie can hold herself up while on her tummy

July 1, 2013 {almost 3 months}
milestone moment: Sadie grabs onto things and holds items

July 11, 2013 {3 months}
milestone moment: Sadie sleeps through the night

August 20, 2013 {4 1/2 months}
milestone moment: Sadie ate her first solid food – homemade applesauce

October 13, 2013 {6 months}
milestone moment: Sadie can sit up on her own

October 16, 2013 {6 months}
milestone moment: Sadie got her first two teeth

October 30, 2013 {6 1/2 months}
milestone moment: Sadie drank water out of a cup on her own

November 4, 2013 {almost 7 months}
milestone moment: Sadie said her first words “Ma-Ma” (it’s faint, but it counts!)

November 18, 2013 {7 months}
milestone moment: Sadie rolled over on her own…and rolled..and rolled..

December 2, 2013 {almost 8 months}
milestone moment: Sadie responds to “clap your hands”

December 25, 2013 {8 1/2 months}
milestone moment: Sadie says “Buh-bye!”

January 14, 2014 {9 months}
milestone moment: Sadie pulls herself up from stomach to sitting position (and is very excited about it afterwards!)

January 21, 2014 {9 1/2 months}
milestone moment: Sadie can drink from a straw (and loves it!)

And the best milestone yet…

January 24, 2014 {9 1/2 months}
Sadie started crawling….looks like it’s time to child proof!

Our little munchkin is already trying so SO so hard to pull herself up from the sitting position to the standing position. She grabs onto whatever she can put her hands on and tries so very hard…sometimes it’s painful to watch just how hard she’s trying! But my guess is, the next milestone moment will be pulling herself up from sitting to standing…and it’s just around the corner!

life lately {9 months}

Life lately with our Sadie Jane..

We {ALL} celebrated our 1st Christmas with our good friends Scott & Cam at their beach house.




Sadie said the cutest “buh-bye!” ever..

Sadie says BUH-BYE! from stacy black becher on Vimeo.

If the video doesn’t play, click here.

We had a quite night home to celebrate new year’s eve with our little mush tush. None of us made it until midnight!


And then the best part of 2014 so far, we went on a vacation to Punta Cana! Despite the 12 hours travel time to/from the resort, it was an amazing trip and I’m so happy we brought Sadie with us!

Enjoy this video slideshow from our vacation:

punta cana january 2014 from stacy black becher on Vimeo.

If the video does not play, click here.

Big milestone this past week, Sadie sat up from the lying down position ON HER OWN. Watch this video of her pulling herself up, and then getting really excited about it afterwards!!

Sadie sits up from lying down position from stacy black becher on Vimeo.

If the video does not play, click here.

She now loves to sit up by herself in her crib…


…so much so that she fell asleep while sitting up!


The big 1 year is just around the corner, I can’t wait to see what the next 3 months bring!

sadie {month 9}

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G-Y-M-B-O and GYMBO is his name-o

One of the best things that I recently started to do is bring Sadie to Gymboree class once a week. She’s in the youngest age group, but she’s a few months older than the other babies in her class. Once she can crawl we’ll move on up to the next age bracket where they move around a little more. But for now, Gymboree class is filled with music, bubbles, parachutes, and most important — Sadie’s smile!

Enjoy the video below complied from a few short videos that I snapped today throughout the class.

Sadie Gymboree from stacy black on Vimeo.

*** FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO RECEIVE MY BLOG VIA EMAIL — videos do not show up in the email format. But you can easily view the video by clicking here.

Sadie {month 8}

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{almost} 8 months old

My dear {almost} 8 months old sadie,

I’m a little behind on this post, but here’s what’s been going on in your life Sadie Jane —

I decided months ago that I wanted to dress you up as a toy poodle for halloween. I found the perfect costume for you to become our 3rd poodle… and you rocked it!

This month you started Gymboree class on Tuesday afternoons. You love it, especially when the bubbles come out…

You welcomed twin baby boy cousins {from afar}…

Mazel Tov to your Aunt Carly and Uncle Sean!

You understand “clap your hands” and you be a clappin’!

Sadie claps her hands! from stacy black on Vimeo.

If the above video does not play, you can view it by clicking this link:

You celebrated your first Thanksgiving..

AND your first Channukah!

It’s hard to believe this was one year ago. {click here}

You also battled your first cold this month…and you managed to pass it on to me. I guess I should get used to that happening from now on 🙂

I can’t believe you will be 8 months old TOMORROW! It just gets better everyday…!

our family {November 2013}

Thank you to Heather of Bella Fino Photography for capturing our family on what was a beautiful November day in North Carolina!

one year later

Last November, we found out that baby B was a girl {read about it here}. This November, we decided that the fact Sadie is now sitting up was a good excuse for a photo shoot of our baby girl.

It’s amazing what a difference one year makes!

one year later

Looking at these two photos – side by side – I am once again brought back to a place of missing my mom. I remember so clearly the day we found out the sex of Baby B. I wanted a daughter more than anything; I wanted a daughter so I could be the mom that I just lost. Of course I would have been happy with a boy, but words could not describe how thrilled I was that we were having a baby girl. And now, one year later, looking at a photo of us with our precious daughter, it brings tears to my eyes. I came across this quote, “Mothers and daughters are closest, when daughters become mothers” and it really struck a chord with me. Even though I don’t have my mom here with me, I appreciate and respect the woman {and the mother} that she was in a whole new level now that I am a mother.

Thank you to Heather Finnocchiaro of Bella Fino Photography for capturing these moments for us to cherish last year, this year, and forever.

Sadie {month 7}

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ma-ma {{my heart melts}}

I found out that I was going to be a mom on August 12, 2012.
I became a mom on April 12, 2013.
And then today Sadie said the words every mother can’t wait to hear, “ma-ma”.
And Craig just so happened to catch her saying it on video 🙂

Sadie says MA-MA from stacy black on Vimeo.

If the above video doesn’t play, you can view it by clicking this link:

I use to be so annoyed with those women who would say, “just wait, you have no idea what true love is until you have a child.” I thought, yeah right. Well guess what? I deserve a smack in the face for doubting them, and for ever believing that any love could compare to a mother’s love. Love is not unconditional until your heart is walking outside of your body. Love is not complete until you see your own smile and eyes on the face of someone else’s {even if she does look like her daddy!}. And on a day like today {and almost everyday} when it hurts knowing all of this NOW but not being able to tell my own mom that I love her, it makes the pain a little less hearing my daughter say the words MA-MA.

Things They Really Don’t Tell You When Having A Baby

I came across this post on (written by Cara Paiuk) and I just think it’s so funny and {sigh} TRUE that I had to share it on here. I added in #32-#40. If you’re a parent, what are some things you would add to this list? Send me your comments!

As an expectant mom or new mom, you have seen this list in some form before. The “things that no one tells you.” Well, most of those lists are missing something. These are some of those missing gems.

1. It will take you at least five hours to watch a movie at home.

2. You will rush through all of your meals as if you were in an eating contest.

3. Sometimes, your baby will be in plain sight when you have sex. And he/she might not be sleeping. Yes, that means watching you.

4. You will compare and contrast your baby against all others and think yours is the Best. Baby. Ever.

5. Things that seem overpriced and worthless end up being what your baby loves most (Toy Bar – $34, Sophie le Giraffe – $20, Happy Baby – priceless).

6. Since your baby wants to mimic you, you will be forced to hand over expensive electronics and pray that they won’t be ruined.

7. You think your parents will help out, but they won’t be nearly as helpful as you hope.

8. You will become an adult and your non-adult friends will fade away.

9. You will think a lot about your relationship with your parents and notice how you are paradoxically becoming them and reacting against them.

10. No matter how great your relationship is with your spouse, you will experience more conflict than you ever did before.

11. You will be embarrassed and humbled by cleaning up poop, experiencing your child screaming in public and/or being that person who is slowing everyone down/getting in the way.

12. You will love your partner more than ever. Especially when daily sacrifices become acts of heroism.

13. You will hate your partner more than ever. Especially when you are bleary-eyed and under-appreciated. So basically, most of the time. You’ll have to tap into reserves of love, patience and tolerance you never knew you had.

14. You will make noises you did not know were possible in an effort to elicit a smile from your baby. Some of those sounds will be obscene.

15. You will learn that the symptoms of sleep deprivation closely resemble severe mental illness.

16. Being asleep by 10 and awake at 6 on a Saturday night has never seemed so glamorous.

17. Your newfound interest in poop will frighten you. When, how much, color, consistency — you may talk about poop more than anything else.

18. You will realize that you never knew this kind of deep love until now.

19. Your breasts are no longer your partner’s (or yours).

20. You’ll find yourself making up ridiculous songs with running commentary on your every move.

21. You will have the highest highs and the lowest lows, possibly all within microseconds of each other.

22. Although you may have appreciated oldies before, you will now catch yourself humming or singing nursery rhymes and ditties from the baby’s toys.

23. No matter how much baby-proofing you do, your baby will find the one thing you didn’t baby-proof.

24. No matter how good your intentions are, keeping up with your baby book is nearly impossible.

25. No one can truly prepare you for what will happen to your body. Hemorrhoids. Stretch Marks. Muffin Top.

26. You are so worried about what your child eats, how much, when, etc. you can forget to eat yourself. Or there is just no time to eat. You may find yourself standing in front of the fridge holding your baby and stuffing string cheese into your mouth.

27. Taking care of your baby will swallow up all your time. You may go days without showering.

28. It’s hard to talk about anything other than baby. If you somehow manage to go on a date with your partner and make a concerted effort to avoid the subject, you will probably be rewarded with some awkward silences.

29. You become insanely paranoid. Every toy, blanket, crib, etc. is a potential threat to your baby’s well-being.

30. You find that “parenting” joins religion, politics and sex as topics unfit for polite conversation (but poop is allowed!).

31. You think airport security sucked before?

32. You will take 100’s of photos of the exact same pose just to get the perfect shot of your baby

33. You will reach new lows, such as going to the bathroom while “wearing” your baby in bjorn/ergo/etc. carrier

34. You will witness your spouse making the most absurd noises just to entertain your baby, and you will love him/her that much more

35. You will stop thinking baby farts are funny, they will become the norm

36. You will be overjoyed about a little tiny poop that causes little mess in the diaper

37. You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day

38. You don’t mind going to bed at 9 p.m. on Friday night

39. Your dog – who used to be your baby – will become just a dog

40. You give parents with a screaming child an ‘I-know-the-feeling’ look instead of a ‘Can’t-they-shut-him-up?’ one

send me your comments with what YOU would add!

{almost} 7 months old

my sweet Sadie baby, you are almost 7 months old.

You have 2 bottom teeth popping through your gums, and most certainly causing you a lot of pain!

You are sitting up on your own.

You’re interacting with your toys and passing objects from hand-to-hand.

You roll and roll and roll.

— if the video above doesn’t play, you can view it by clicking this link:

We’ve lowered your crib because you were grabbing at your mobile.

You look like an angel when you’re sleeping.

This month you’ve been loving your walker (video below is in SLOW MO {and super funny!} courtesy of Aunt Cam)..

— if the video above doesn’t play, you can view it by clicking this link:

You love to jump, jump, jump, in your jolly jumper.

— if the video above doesn’t play, you can view it by clicking this link:

You’ve excelled from playing the piano with your feet to your hands!

You are wearing 12 month size clothes — all of your little “newborn” clothes are {sadly} stored away.

You blow spit bubbles.

You love yogurt – blueberry, vanilla, and banana are your favorite flavors.

You {attempt to} drink water from a cup.

— if the video above doesn’t play, you can view it by clicking this link:

You’re weighing in at 19.4 pounds and you’re 28 inches long.

You still love your bath-time {“you hear the water running, you see the bubbles bubbling”….as daddy sings the bath song!} and now you play with toys in the bath.

This month you took your first flight {ever} to NJ and visited with your Grandma Leslie, Poppy Steve, Uncle Jason, Aunt Amy, and cousin Tyler.

You are my {almost} 7 month old sunshine Sadie Jane, my only sunshine!

her laugh warms my heart

Sadie Laughing from stacy black on Vimeo.

if the video isn’t showing up, you can view it by clicking this link:

guess who is sitting up all by herself?!

the first 6 months…and now a sense of calm

A good friend of mine just had a baby a few weeks ago and her text messages to me bring back so many memories of the first month.  The constant feedings, no sleep…..  and in my opinion it didn’t get easier after the first month.  But now that Sadie has reached 6 months, there’s a calmness in our house.   Sadie sleeps from 6:30/7pm – 6:30/7am.   But she’s been sleeping through the night since 3 months old!  This new calmness that I’m feeling is during her awake hours…   she’s sitting up on her own, playing with toys, interacting with her surroundings, and just more enjoyable to be around.  What I used to refer to as “hard work” is now the times I love the most during the day…. hanging out with my giggly 6 month old.  I have no idea what is to come around the corner — 7 months old could bring terror — but for now I’m pleasantly calm after making it through the first 6 months.


Sadie {month 6}

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{almost} 6 months old

Sadie means princess.

Sadie, you are my little {almost} 6 months old princess.

You love to watch The Giggle Bellies.   You Are MY Sunshine. Bumble Bee.  ABC superstar.  Colors of the Rainbow.  You name it, if it’s The Giggle Bellies, you love it!


You wear two piece PJs now, and mommy thinks you look cute-as-can-be!

You are teething, but find little relief from your teething ring 🙁

But even though you’re teething, you still love to giggle and smile!

You’ve figured out how to turn from your back onto your stomach and cool tricks like getting from this position…

to this position…

all on your own!

I can’t believe you are almost 6 months — we’ve almost spent half a year with our little princess!!!!

some thoughts on this beautiful day for my beautiful daughter

You are dressed in black and white miss Sadie (mommy’s favorite colors) but you are far from black & white, you are full of color!  You love to gab and jibber jabber; there’s hardly a moment when you’re not speaking baby language.  And your smile warms my heart each and every day.



My favorite part of the evening is our special time together after your bath.  I hold you in my arms and together we softly sway as I rock you to sleep.  You are usually asleep within 20 minutes, but I rock you for much longer, and I just watch you — my beautiful daughter.  It’s our time together — our special time — and I will cherish these {baby} moments as I know they won’t last forever.

And on that note, a special prayer for my Sadie Jane…

I hold you in my arms
And together we softly sway
As I rock you to sleep
And this is what I pray:

I pray for your safety
Your health and happiness, too
I ask God to wrap you in his love
In Everything You do

I pray you’ll never know
A single ounce of pain
That you carry no burden
And that you smile through the rain

I pray you have the will
To make all your dreams come true
And that you find success
In all you set out to do

I pray for your future
One that I hope is bright
And if you have the choice
To always do what’s right

I pray you have peace
And love inside your heart
Not just for yourself
But for those less fortunate than you are

I pray you grow into a person
Who values those you love
And that loyalty and honesty
Are not just things you speak of

I pray so many things for you
Because I love you so
You are a little piece of me
My heart and my soul


Sadie {month 5}

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bathing baby beauty

Hard life this little bathing beauty has…she spent the day {or more like 1 hour} poolside!

butterfly footprints

This post if very belated {4 months!}….

If you’re feeling crafty – like I was this past Mother’s Day – and you have a little one at home, then considering making butterfly footprint art as a gift {what grandmother wouldn’t love this?!} or as a keepsake for yourself.

I did this with Sadie when she was 1 month old, but obviously it would work with any age child.

What you need:

  • washable canvas
  • toxic free acrylic washable paint
  • paint brushes
  • and last but not least, two adorable feet

The steps:

  1. put the paint colors you want to use on a plate or piece of cardboard
  2. use a brush to apply paint to the bottom of your child’s foot 
  3. gently press foot against canvas, pressing down each toe 
  4. repeat steps 2 & 3 with other foot 
  5. add any embellishments that you desire to create butterfly shape  {I made mine very simple but be as creative as you can be!}
  6. enjoy your butterfly footprint artwork!




{almost} 5 months

My dear Sadie Jane… you are {almost} 5 months and you are quite the fussy baby these days!

But when you aren’t being Miss Fuss — you are sleeping through the night, napping twice a day, and starting to eat solids like a pro.

You LOVE to be carried around in your baby bjorn.

Your fingers….

…AND your toes…

…are always in your mouth….unless they are playing the piano!

You still could care less about your puppies, but they sure do love being around you.

You amaze me everyday and {almost} 5 months later and I still can’t believe how lucky I am that you are my daughter.

Happy Birthday Yitzy

I want to wish a VERY special HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY to the boy who “first” made me an aunt a year ago today – my nephew and Sadie’s oldest cousin – Yitzy!


It feels like we were JUST meeting him a few days after he was born, see post by clicking here.

All my best wishes to you Yitzy on your first birthday. Hopefully you are enjoying cake and everything else you love to eat today! Happy Birthday!
We love you!

mommy’s notes

Dear Sadie,

I started jotting down {almost daily, beginning when you were two weeks old} notes of this-and-that to remember everything you’ve been up to in your new life. You’ve been one busy baby! Today is August 23 and you are 18 weeks old, but let’s go back and see what you’ve been up to for the past 4 1/2 months…the little things, the milestones and daily nothings worthy of mommy jotting down in her journal.

{April 25} “…today was Sadie’s estimated due date – so glad we’ve had her now for just about 2 weeks – I can’t imagine delivering her today….tonight we are going to introduce the bottle (with breast milk)…”
{April 26} “…2 week check up today, 7 lbs 14 oz – right on target…also Sadie’s first baby friend – baby Cote – was born today…”
{April 27} “…Sadie slept for a 4 hour stretch! Maybe it was the wine I had at dinner, oops?!…Craig fed Sadie her bottle for the first time…”
{April 28} “…We found out the good news that Sadie is going to have 2 more cousins…twin cousins!…”
{April 29} “…Sadie was very calm and relaxed during her bath – best bath yet!”
{April 30} “…Bad night of sleeping…Sadie drank two bottles but still wanted to fall asleep by nursing, but mommy is tired…”
{May 1st} “…Sadie slept upstairs in her crib (in her nursery) for the first time all night and will be bottle fed (by Gale). We really need a good night sleep but will also miss not having her next to our bed…”
{May 2} “…Used pacifier today for the first time to help soothe and Sadie seemed to really like it. Tonight Craig is giving Sadie her first bath by himself…”
{May 3} “…Sadie is really taking to her pacifier and it’s helping a lot to soothe her…”
{May 4} “…Sadie loves to spend the mornings awake with her daddy…”
{May 5} “…1st tummy time on play-mat…”
{May 7} “…Sadie is back sleeping in our room for a night to give Gale some much needed rest…”
{May 8} “…Craig left for his first business trip since Sadie was born — Sadie is very fussy today and is staying awake and alert longer…”
{May 9} “…Sadie had her first major meltdown, after her bath, she was over tired and really hungry. She wanted to eat but was too tired and wanted to sleep as well. It was a mess of screaming and tears. Gale was able to soothe her finally with the noise of running water…”
{May 10} “…I took Sadie out by myself for the first time today – we went to the gym so my trainer could meet her – it felt great to have her out alone! She also nursed today for 40 minutes, that’s the longest so far…”
{May 11} “…The first of five days without Gale while she’s off… Craig and I took Sadie to Whole Foods and the Mall…”
{May 12} “…I woke up Mother’s Day morning with Sadie sleeping in the bed with me 🙂 We had brunch together – bittersweet day for mommy…”
{May 13} “…Daddy has become a pro at bath time and Sadie doesn’t even fuss anymore during it, except when he almost burnt her!…”
{May 15} “…Sadie spent almost all morning sleeping while I wore her around the house in the Ergo baby…”
{May 16} “…Sadie slept from 8pm – 1am, she slept through the last night feeding!…”
{May 17} “…We are trying to start Sadie on a 3 hour eating schedule but it doesn’t seem like she’s getting enough while nursing to be able to last 3 hours. We’re considering introducing formula to supplement the feedings…”
{May 18} “…We had dinner out with friends for the first time and I really missed being away from Sadie…”
{May 19} “…We have started to use a sleep sack to keep Sadie warm when she sleeps, because she doesn’t like the swaddle and wants her arms out…”
{May 20} “…Introduced formula for one feeding to see if it helped hold Sadie over longer – made me feel really guilty for not nursing that feeding –also there is a rash on Sadie’s face that seems to be getting worse so we’re going to see the doctor…”
{May 21} “…Craig left for a week long business trip – so precious when he hugged Sadie goodbye — I’m noticing while in her swing that Sadie is looking up and interacting with the mirror and mobile…”
{May 25} “…Sadie had a really rough night sleep and was up almost every hour…”
{May 26} “…Grandpa Mark and Nana Sheila visited…”
{May 27} “…1st playdate with baby Bryant…”
{May 28} “…Sadie had a really good day today because she took a lot of naps!…”
{June 1} “…We spent our first 24 hours away from the baby — went to Ferrington House for our 2 year wedding anniversary…”
{June 4} “…Sadie started following us with her eyes/head – very exciting!…”
{June 5} “…My milk supply seems to be decreasing so Sadie is going to sleep in our room for a few nights to see if that helps…”
{June 6} “…Ultrasound appointment to check Sadie’s hips since she was breeched, all is good…”
{June 7-13} “…Great Grandma Martha,Poppy Steve, Grandma Leslie, Aunt Carly, Uncle Sean, and Cousin Yitzy all in town visiting baby Sadie…”
{June 15} “…We took Sadie in the pool for the first time, she loved it, I think she thought it was a bath…”
{June 16} “…Father’s Day Brunch in Durham at the Washington Duke Inn…”
{June 17} “…Cardiologist appointment to check the hole in Sadie’s heart…” {you can read more about that here}
{June 22} “…We spent the morning/afternoon in Greensboro visiting Great Grandma Doris, Great Aunt Susan, Cousin Laurie and baby Elle…”
{June 23} “…Sadie is really starting to coo and giggle, especially when her lower lip is touched, she loves that!…”
{June 28} “…First time in “big girl” portion of stroller – also took Sadie’s first weekend trip for Rae and Zack’s wedding in Maryland. Sadie did great especially on the car ride back when she slept for 6 hours. While at the hotel, the crib we rented was very low, we learned our lesson to always bring pack & play…”
{June 30} “…Sadie is really holding her head up and can do it for an extended period of time — love to have her lower lip touched especially if you are wiping her mouth with her bib — she loves watching TV (Gale says its the bright colors) — She naps more now but in her swing and not as much in her crib…”
{July 1} “…Sadie has started grabbing onto clothes and blankets and bringing it up to her face, and giggles while doing it…”
{July 2} “…Last night in her “whale” newborn tub…” (click here to see this post)
{July 3} “…Sadie started taking her first steps…supported of course!…”
{July 4} “…Grandpa Mark and Nana Sheila visited for the weekend — Sadie has started sucking her thumb…”
{July 8} “…Sadie spit up, like REALLY spit up, for the first time today. I think she gagged herself a little on the bottle nipple…”
{July 9} “…We’ve been trying to get Sadie on a 10am-12pm, 2pm-4pm nap routine, but it’s hard because some days she sleeps better than others. She usually always takes a power nap sometimes between 8am-9am. We’ve moved her bath time to 6:30pm to help avoid the nightly meltdowns…”
{July 11-15} “…First beach trip with Sadie – we went to Sanderiling Resort — took Sadie on the beach 2 times. She did great and literally slept like a baby. It was so peaceful to sit there on the beach under the shade and have her sleep in my arms. I had a really bad cold at the start of the beach trip so I tried not handling her as much as I could but it was really hard not to, especially after bath-time. I love my time with Sadie after bath when I give her a bottle (or nurse her) and then rock her to sleep and I miss it when I don’t get to. Traveling with baby is def. more of a production that I imagined but we will get better each time! We rented a bigger car just to be able to fit all of our stuff. Also, Sadie has started sleeping from 8pm – 5am without waking to eat, then she eats and back to sleep until 7am. She’s sleeping about 8 hours straight – which is wonderful!…”
{July 16} “…Sadie slept in our room to give Gale a little break. After she slept past her normal 5am wakeup, I got up to check to see if she was still breathing! I couldn’t believe that she basically slept ALL through the night!
{July 19} “…Gale left for 5 days for New York, and each day Sadie progressively got worse and worse (oops mommy!) — less napping and more fussy…”
{July 26} “…Sadie is now ticklish when her daddy tickles her on the changing table — naps are still inconsistent but now that Gale is back, she is at least napping more. Sadie doesn’t use the pacifier anymore but she LOVES sucking her thumbs and her fingers to soothe herself. She is perfect about going down to sleep in her crib at night…”
{July 29} “…Craig left for business trip but Sadie loved talking to him over FaceTime. You could really see that she was watching the screen, it was adorable…”
{August 5} “…Carried Sadie in the baby Bjorn for the first time…she loved it because she was facing out so she could see everything…”
{August 8} “…Sadie now drinks 8oz of formula before she goes to bed! She sleeps until 6am and then has a bottle of breast milk, and then back to sleep until 8am – Sadie loves her green baby pod chair because she loves to sit upright…”
{August 9} “…Sadie met her Uncle Jason, Aunt Amy, and cousin baby Tyler for the first time…”
{August 10} “…Sadie’s Hebrew Baby Naming Ceremony!…” (read more about it here)
{August 11} “…We took Sadie to Greensboro for my mom’s grave-marker unveiling. Sadie basically did not have a chance to nap all morning or afternoon and she did so good! Even though it was a bitter sweet day, she made her mommy very proud!…”
{August 12} “…Topsail Island Beach Vacation…” (read more about it here)
{August 16} “…Sadie has become more interactive – it’s so much fun! She still loves being carried in my arms upright. She could be fine like that for hours at a time if I let her!…”
{August 17} “…Started using the bouncer excersaucer – she can’t quite touch the floor but we put foam mat underneath so she can push herself off. She loves to watch colorful music videos (especially giggle bellies) on the Ipad.
{August 19} “…Sadie had her 4 month check-up today..she’s 15 lbs and 4 oz and 25.5 inches long – which is the 99th percentile for height! She had shots but only cried for a few seconds…”
{August 20} “…1st taste of solid food – homemade applesauce – Sadie was not impressed and made a really funny face each time she tasted it on the spoon…”

Phew, that’s a lot! You’ve been quite a busy girl and I’m so glad I’ve documented all of these little things for you to one day read about. And don’t worry the jotting down notes will continue…..



my little munchkin

This little munchkin butt {as I like to call her} has stolen every little piece of my heart.

Happy 29th Birthday Craig

Happy Birthday to my better half.

Next year {for the big 30} you’ll get your pig roast party, this year you get a blog post : )

Thank you for being you.

Thank you not only for cooking our meals, but for accepting me for who I am in the kitchen- someone who knows how to order in!

Thank you for helping me to become more organized, over and over and over again.  I’ll get there one day.  But until then, thank you for still loving me and my messiness.

Several years ago, for your birthday, I gave you a gym membership for 6 months.  You went once.
I love that now you go to the gym all the time and you have found your passion in Krav Maga.  You have transformed your body and I can’t believe how lucky I am to have such a fit and attractive husband.

Thank you for being there during my pregnancy to massage every ache and pain.

In the hospital after Sadie was born, you were a rockstar.  And when we got home, you were SUPER dad as Gale called you.  Thank you for getting up with me at night to change Sadie before I fed her even though you were seriously lacking in sleep and you had to work in the morning.  You did it all with me, and I’m so appreciative for that.

Thank you for coming home early from your business trip last week when I truly needed your support.

I am so lucky to wake up every morning with you next to me.

I love you today and everyday from the bottom of my heart.

Happy 29th Birthday Craig!

Happy Birthday from Sadie

Dear Daddy,

I love when you squeeze my cheeks.

And when you turn into the tickle monster it’s the best!

You are the one who makes me giggle the loudest.

I hate saying goodbye when you leave for business trips..

But I do love our FaceTime together!

Sorry for wearing you out all the time…

Happy Birthday to my daddy!

Sadie’s first solid foods

Sadie baby, today mommy woke up extra early so she could make you homemade applesauce for your first taste of solid foods. You were not impressed.

Here’s to trying again tomorrow!

my nursing {breast-feeding} experience

This post might be a little too much information for some of you.  If that’s the case, then stop reading.  Simple as that!

Once I reached 37 weeks pregnant (full-term), I was ready to get baby-B out of me.  I tried just about everything, including using my breast pump for 15 minutes on each side.  I read in various sources that nipple stimulation helps to naturally induce labor.  So I did this for 3 consecutive days. And Sadie was born the next day.  But that’s not what I’m writing about AND I’m not promoting using a breast-pump to induce labor.  But what it did help with was bringing my milk supply in early. Before I even went into labor, I had a tiny bit of milk pumped.  It was so exciting the first sight of milk… weird, but exciting.  I was such a breast feeding newbie, sounds funny now to be excited about a little bit of milk! Little did I know then how much I would grow to dread pumping.  But let’s not jump ahead of ourselves.  Back to the hospital…my milk supply had fully come in, and Sadie was latching on like a pro.  {Thanks to the help from the amazing lactation specialists at Wake Med} I felt so grateful and proud that nursing was working for us because I know how hard it is for some moms to get the initial latch, which is key to it all. Once Sadie was home, feeding became our special time.  I only nursed in her rocking chair in her nursery.  I enjoyed this bonding time, this time away from everyone else.  The first month seems like a blur, but I know that every 2-3 hours, day or night, we had our time together.  I know how much Sadie benefited health-wise by being breastfed that first month, but I benefited emotionally just as much. And then the 6 week mark hit, and Sadie went through some ridiculous growth spurt and was eating almost every hour and I just wanted a break.  A tiny little break.  So I had the not-so-bright idea of introducing formula for one feeding. Just for one feeding.  But little did this new nursing mom know – my supply would decrease if I replaced a feeding with formula.  And decrease it did. At first I had serious anxiety about not being able to exclusively feed my baby breast milk, so much anxiety that I went to the doctor about it.  She recommended that I take a medicine called Reglan, which increased my supply temporarily, but had to be stopped because of harmful side effects of long term usage of the medicine. So flash forward to now, at 17 weeks, and my supply has dwindled down to about 3 ounces a day.  Sadie eats about 8oz a feeding.  Every breastfeeding has to be supplemented with formula, there’s just no way around it at this point. Sadie has to be fed and I’m not making enough milk to supply all of her demand.  And then I have to pump after each feeding to even keep my supply up as little as it is. And it’s so depressing to pump for 15 minutes and only fill an ounce or two, something that I used to fill 5 ounces in no time. This routine is exhausting and stressful. But for some reason I can’t find it in me to fully stop.  Sadie would be fine, she has practically weaned herself off my breast.  I don’t think she would miss it. But her mommy, well that’s a different story.  I already miss our cherished special time together, and we still have it somewhat. But on the other hand, I’m done physically – I’m just exhausted from the cycle of breastfeeding and pumping. And I’m exhausted of feeling like a milking cow.  I’ve given Sadie what is known as liquid gold for 4 months, that’s 4 months longer than I was ever given it as a baby!  And I turned out okay, right?! I thought I would breastfeed for at least a year, but I’ve got to be okay with how long I DID nurse for. After all, nothing has quite gone as planned or expected in my world of motherhood. I should be proud of the 4 months, and not ashamed of ending sooner than planned. I need to tell myself, Congratulations Stacy, job well done! {but do I really feel that way?!}

Would love to hear back from anyone with your breastfeeding stories and your decision to stop breastfeeding

my TALL baby girl

Today we took Sadie to the pediatrician for her 4 month {and 1 week} check-up.

She is 15 lbs 14 oz, and is 25.5 inches long. I know that she is a big baby, but I did not realize just how tall she is… Sadie is in the 99th percentile for height!

As we were checking out, I saw a young couple bringing in their brand new baby, just a few days old. I couldn’t believe how small the baby looked; it’s crazy knowing that was Sadie just a few months ago. The first 4 months have flown by..and I know time is just going to keep on flying. Before we know it, we’ll be bringing Sadie in for her 4 year check-up!

But for now, I’m loving my 4 month {and 1 week} old baby girl.

Sadie is such a cuddle bug these days, and she loves to burry her head in my neck nook.

She also loves her new found entertainment – her bouncer. And mommy loves that it distracts her for a good 15 minutes at a time.

Or plop Sadie in her bright green floor chair and turn on giggle bellies and she’s in heaven.

And what’s in store for Sadie baby tomorrow? We’re introducing solids….


slideshow fun

During Sadie’s baby naming party, we played an ongoing slideshow on our TV’s for a little entertainment while everyone was mingling.  These pictures aren’t new, and if you’ve been following this blog, then you’ve probably seen almost all of them.  But the slideshow was worthy of a post of it’s own, for Sadie to have to watch one day!

Sadie Baby Naming Slideshow Video from stacy black on Vimeo.

If the video doesn’t show up, you can view it by going to this link:

our {not-so} beach vacation

While I was pregnant, Craig and I attended a charity event which had a raffle prize of a vacation at this beautiful NC beach house:

I never win anything, I mean NEVER, but guess who won the beach house trip? This {then} pregnant lady!

And so this past week, we “cashed-in” on my once in a lifetime win, along with Nana Sheila and Grandpa Mark, and headed to Topsail Island for what we thought would be 5 days of fun in the sun.

But thanks to the rainy summer we’ve been having here in NC, it turned into only 1 day of fun in the sun…



….which included Sadie’s first “feet in the ocean” experience…. [thanks Scott and Cam for the adorable water shoes!]

and 4 days of a {not-so} sunny beach vacation; but fun nonetheless!

We spent almost all of our time rocking and relaxing on the breezy back and front porches of the house, enjoying the views and the company.

But there’s only so much day-drinking and porch rocking that one can do on a beach-vacation-turned-{not-so}-beach-vacation; thank goodness we had Sadie there to keep us ALL entertained!

And don’t worry, Sadie had plenty of relaxation on her {not-so} beach vacation…

Simcha Chaya {Sadie’s Hebrew Naming}

This past weekend we had a Hebrew baby naming ceremony for Sadie at our home with close friends and family. The ceremony was very special as Sadie is named in honor and in memory of my grandfather and my mom. Sadie impressed her mommy so much as she was on her best behavior…not one bit of fussiness from her! And at the end of the ceremony, when the Rabbi blessed Sadie, she looked right in her eyes…. the Rabbi said in 25 years she has never had a baby look directly at her during the blessing. It was precious… my heart melted!

We have given Sadie the hebrew name Simcha Chaya in honor and in memory of her great-grandfather Stanley and her grandmother Jane. In the jewish religion, it is believed that a child will be inspired in her life by the good qualities of the loved ones for whom she is named. Craig and I can’t imagine two people whose lives were better suited for our daughter to emulate.

Simcha means joy. My grandfather Stanley had a special gift of bringing joy to those closest to him and to those he never met. He accomplished great things in his life, but he never lost site of what was most important to him: his family. When Sadie learns about her great-grandfather, she will know him as I knew him, as my Poppy. I will tell her about his morning wakeup calls, our monthly lunch dates, and the dozen roses he would send me every valentines day. She will learn about his giving nature and the difference he made in so many people’s lives, which in turn brought joy back to his life. Well, that and chocolate chip cookies. I will never forget what I was told by an employee of my Grandfather several years ago. She said that “if I could come back in my next life as anyone, I would want to come back as Stanley Tanger’s grand-daughter.” Her words have always stuck with me, and I know just how lucky I am to have been able to call him my Poppy. And even though Sadie will never get to meet him, she will learn about all of his good qualities and will one day realize how lucky she is to be his great-granddaughter. And with the name Simcha, we hope she will give joy to others and receive joy from them.

Chaya means life. My mom was given this hebrew name after she overcame two brain tumors when she was a small child. Her will to live was present then and everyday thereafter, as she never stopped pushing through challenges that came her way, all with a positive attitude. Her zest for life was truly contagious! And as today we celebrate the life of our new daughter, it’s hard to believe that exactly one year ago we were mourning my mom’s death. The biggest challenge that I had to face while I was pregnant and throughout the past 4 months of being a new mom, is the loss I feel on a daily basis of not having my mom here with me. And what hurts even more is knowing that my precious daughter will never have the opportunity to meet her. She will feel her presence though, as my mom’s memory will always be kept alive; she will always know who her Grandma Jane was and just how much she would have loved her. And as it is also believed in the Jewish religion that the soul of a loved one lives on in the child who now bears his or her name, I have faith that my mom’s soul lives on through her granddaughter, her namesake.

Our hope for Sadie Jane, through her hebrew name Simcha Chaya, is that she carries a piece of my grandfather and my mom in her heart, and most importantly, that she is able to find joy in her life.

You can watch (an unprofessional) video from the ceremony here:

Sadie’s Hebrew Baby Naming Ceremony from stacy black on Vimeo.

If the video doesn’t show up above, click this link to watch it:

Sadie {month 4}

13 weeks old:

14 weeks old:

15 weeks old:

4 months old:

the first year without my mom

On August 11, 2012 my mom died. On August 12, 2012 I found out that I was pregnant. The very first day of my life without having my mom, was also the very first day of my life that I learned I was going to be a mom. My body knew to stay calm and did not meltdown in complete sadness; there was a growing life inside me to care for now.

If you’ve been following this blog, then you know about the emotional struggle I dealt with throughout my pregnancy; what I called my emotional ying and yang. Many of my posts reflected on my feelings of loss for my mom during what was a very exciting time in my life. Thoughts of my mom interwind into my pregnancy journey every step of the way; which in some sense helped me feel closer to her – knowing that she must have gone through some of the same experiences when she was pregnant as I was then going through.

And then the day was finally here when Sadie was born. And the flood of emotions of not having my mom around came pouring in. I’ve spent the last 4 months {of the first year without my mom} experiencing milestones in my daughter’s life — her first smile, first giggle, first everything — all worthy of a phone call to my mom to share the news; a call that I will never be able to make.

I don’t think it’s fully hit me that Sadie will never meet her Grandma Jane. She will never know the woman who raised me, the one that I turned to for hugs, the single most influential person in shaping who I am today. All of the fun things that Sadie would have gotten to experience with her … hurts knowing that they will never have that time together.

I can’t believe it’s been a year since I hugged my mom goodbye for the last time. 365 days without my mom; the same mom that I couldn’t bear to be away from for 2 weeks when I went to summer camp. Only now my calendar doesn’t have a smiley face on the date when I get to see her again.

The first year without my mom has come and gone, but the feeling of loss will never end. She will forever exist in my heart and in my mind; I will carry her with me forever.

celebrating my mom’s life (UPDATED VERSION) from stacy black on Vimeo.

If the video above doesn’t play, you can go to it by clicking this link:

almost 4 months old….some thoughts

Sadie you are just shy of 4 months old.
You are still such a newborn but you seem like such a big girl to your mommy. You love to suck your thumb and your fingers, and you sometimes do all that you can to get both of your hands into your mouth. To say you are always covered in saliva is an understatement. You love to be upright.
You no longer find comfort from the cradle hold; you don’t want to be rocked like a baby, you want to be held up like a big girl. You nap twice a day, but your nap time has a schedule of its own. You are little miss fussy when you don’t nap! You are still nursing, but you also have formula because you’re one hefty eater and mommy can’t keep up. Your smile melts my heart. You love the tickle monster (daddy) and you give him special giggles. You love your Gale, and mommy is so happy we have her to help. We have a special night time routine and mommy loves putting you to bed. And guess what? You now sleep “almost” through the night… if you consider 5am to be the morning! You love your swing, but only when it’s on the fastest setting. You could care less about your two puppies, but they like to sniff your toes. You have deep blue eyes, no clue where those came from, but let’s hope they stay. Your hair is always a mess, but you are still cute-as-can-be and I love you. love you. love you.
Sadie you are just shy of 4 months old, but to me you are nothing shy of perfect!

daddy love

Sadie {month 3}

9 weeks old:

10 weeks old:

11 weeks old:

3 months old:

Sadie {month 2}

5 weeks old:

6 weeks old:

7 weeks old:

2 months old:

Sadie {month 1}

1 week old:

2 weeks old:

3 weeks old:

1 month old:

4th of July with Grandpa and Nana

Sadie was fast asleep before any fireworks started, but she still enjoyed celebrating July 4th weekend with her special visitors: Grandpa (Mark) and Nana (Sheila)!

a {tiny} hole in sweet Sadie’s heart

We found out on day #2 in the hospital that our precious baby girl was born with a ventricular septal defect (VSD)….also known as a hole in the heart. Medically speaking, it’s a congenital heart defect in which there is an abnormal opening in the dividing wall between the main pumping chambers of the heart. We were relieved to learn that the size of Sadie’s VSD was very small AND that we did not need to worry about anything as long as she gained weight… WHICH SHE DID….and then the next step was to see a specialist after she turned 2 months.

So that’s exactly what we did. We did not worry (or even have time to worry) about the VSD, and before we knew it we were sitting in the waiting room {with our 2 month old Sadie} to see a pediatric cardiologist.

AND THEN… that’s when it hit me. Sadie has a hole in her heart.

The doctor took her blood pressure with the tiniest cuff I’ve ever seen:

Followed by an ultrasound of her heart that seemed to last forever. And sure enough, the hole was still there. It’s smaller, but it’s still there. The tears started flowing…and suddenly I felt as if I too had a hole in my heart.

But for now, there’s nothing that needs to be or can be done – and according to the doctor, the hole does not appear to impose any immediate risk. We will go back to the cardiologist again when Sadie turns 1 year old, and hopefully the hole will have closed up on its own by that point.

And if not…we will cross that bridge at the time.

splish splash {it’s time for the big girl tub}

It seems like just yesterday Sadie was [not-so-much] enjoying her first bath……and now 3 months later she has officially splish splashed her way through her newborn tub, and loved every minute of it.

Enjoy this slideshow of Sadie’s favorite time of the day… BATH TIME!!

…And now onto the big girl tub!

life {lately} with our Sadie baby

Once again I find myself {very} behind on updating this blog and I have a feeling that playing “blog post catch up” will become the new norm for me. Here’s a few photos – starting with the most recent ones – from life lately {June 2013} with our Sadie baby:

{early} morning smiles

For as long as I can remember, the snooze button has always been my best friend in the mornings. I always set my alarm for at least 1-2 hours before the actual time that I need to wake up —alarm goes snooze.sleep 15 minutes.alarm goes snooze.sleep 15 minutes……you get the point! I have never popped out of bed at the first sound of my alarm; that is until my alarm clock turned into early morning cooing and smiles.
It all starts about 5:40am, I wake up ON MY OWN (which I have NEVER in my life done before) and I patiently wait in bed until my “new” alarm goes off — sometimes it goes off at 6:05am, sometimes 6:40am, and even sometimes {as late as} 7:20am — and then this mamma pops out of bed like it’s no ones business! No snooze button needed when I get to wakeup to {early} morning smiles from this little one:

life with Sadie {the first 50 days}

On April 12th, 2013, life as we knew it ended and life with Sadie Jane began. So many special moments, so many firsts, so many emotions…. all happening at lighting speed. And every week I’ve wanted to write a new blog post to document everything for Sadie to be able to look back on one day AND to continue sharing our journey into parenthood with our friends and family. But I quickly realized that wanting to update my blog was one thing; finding the time to do so was another. I did, however, manage to jot down daily notes to use as memory triggers for when I eventually found the time to update this blog — but when I finally did have some free time – I wanted to share what was happening in the moment.

But how could I possibly start documenting for the first time about life with Sadie at 4 weeks old, when there were so many memories from the weeks prior.. so many moments that I worried would be forgotten if I didn’t write about them..

And soon 4 weeks of blog catch up turned into 5 weeks…6 weeks…and now 7 weeks. I’ve finally come to the realization that I’m not going to have the chance in the near future to sit down for hours and write about our life with Sadie thus far, so I’m compacting it all into this one post – with very little details but lots of photos! And then FINALLY I will be able to cross off “update blog for past weeks” from my to-do list, and hopefully start posting more “in the moment” moving forward.


her arrival on April 12, 2013 at 4:20am (read more about it here)

Craig meeting Sadie for the first time, about 20 minutes after her arrival

Before I was put “under” – the last thing I remember being told was that I will wake up and have a baby. About 45 minutes later, I woke up and held my little girl for the first time.

Grandpa Mark and Nana Sheila arrived soon after to meet their first granddaughter / grandchild

The first day in the hospital… footprints, first bath

Grandma Leslie and Poppy Steve arrived to meet their first granddaughter

Sadie Jane surrounded with love by her grandparents

Ready to go home!

Lilly watching over her new baby sister from day one

First pediatrician visit

First stroll around the neighborhood with our baby girl

First “manicure”

First weekly photo, 1 week old!

meeting Great Grammy Doris

First bath at home

First time in her pack and play, snug as a bug

Mommy love

Cuddling with her baby nurse, Gale

2 weeks old!

Daddy feeding Sadie for the first time (bottle was introduced with breast milk at 2 weeks)

Craig giving Sadie a bath for the first time

3 weeks old!

First time on the playmate for tummy time

First craft project — Mother’s Day gift for Sadie’s Grandma Leslie and Nana Sheila

Someone likes to cuddle with her Mommy

Starting to interact with her swing

Goodbye kiss from daddy before he leaves for first business trip since she arrived

Lilly “sitting” guard

First time wearing Sadie

My first mother’s day – very bittersweet

1 month old!

First time chilling in her baby bjorn – which has now become a morning ritual

5 weeks old!

6 weeks old!

Grandpa Mark and Nana Sheila visit

Memorial Day play-day with Bryant – just a few months before they were both in the womb (remember this post?), now they are baby buddies

My little “big” girl…loving her at this 7 week old stage (it’s true that it just gets better everyday!)

Sadie is ready for the summer!

My beautiful Sadie Jane


for my sadie jane..

Sadie, this blog is my gift to you. After your Grandma Jane went to Heaven, I found a picture of her when she was pregnant. This is the first time I had ever seen a picture of her with a baby belly and I was taken back by how incredibly beautiful and happy she looked. Your Grandma was glowing! I will always cherish this photo. And then there is my baby book, which she filled with memories and milestones from when I was a baby, written in her own words. I love reading about all of my firsts moments and I especially love reading about how my mom was feeling at the time. I am so incredibly grateful that she documented these memories for me to look back on. And so it is my hope that one day you will look back at all of the memories that I’ve documented for you, and that you will always know how much you are loved….beginning with when you were just a (+) mark on a stick; a positive sign of happiness when your mommy needed it most.

birth plan..what birth plan?

My little Sadie, she came into this world with a bang! I had a plan…a very detailed birth plan. This included specifics such as: my doula and Craig to be in the room for the labor/delivery, receiving an epidural, delaying the chord cutting until blood was done pulsing, Craig to cut the chord, skin-to-skin contact immediately after birth. We attended a 2-day labor class and learned all about the different stages of labor and how to help mommy (and daddy) relax through the pain. But what caused me the most anxiety as her due date approached was the unknown of how it would all unfold. Where would I be when my water broke? Would my water even break on it’s own? How would I know if the contractions were real? How bad would the traffic be driving to the hospital? How much pain would I be in? Would I really have to push her out of me? Would the epidural take away all the pain? The questions were endless and the unknown was scary; but at the time the unknown consisted of many “knowns” – we just weren’t sure which of these “known” unknowns would come to fruition. Silly us for thinking we knew it all!

Our birth plan changed on April 11th, as we found out at my 38 week prenatal visit that Sadie was breeched (butt down). Since I was so far along, it didn’t make sense to attempt to turn her, which was unlikely to be successful but very likely to be painful. At this point, we scheduled at c-section for April 19th, when she would be 39 weeks. We called our parents that evening and shared the news. I spent the rest of the night grappling with the notion that my vision of how my labor/delivery would now consist of a c-section. This left me with a whole new set of questions and a little bit of sadness as well. But at the same time, we still had a plan, a planned c-section. That would all change a few hours later! I went to bed that evening with the intention of calling my doula in the morning to let her know we wouldn’t need to use her services since only Craig would be allowed in the room for the c-section, for our planned c-section. And then it happened, shortly after 1:30am, my water broke! The rest of the story is best told by my Doula, who documented everything starting with my call to her at 2am. Below is what she wrote:

Stacy called at 2:00a.m. And said that the baby was breach (butt was presenting) and her water had just broke. She was concerned that it was an emergency situation, but I explained to her that the baby was not coming out quickly and that she had time to shower and get herself ready to go to the hospital. She called back to say that they were heading to the hospital and I met them at 3:10a.m. In triage. Stacy seemed fine at first, but began having more intense contractions. At approx. 3:40, her nurse Kelly drew her blood and gave her an IV. Stacy became hot and felt faint during that procedure so we placed a cold washcloth on her forehead to cool her down. Her contractions became very intense and Kelly noticed the baby’s heart rate dipped so she had her roll to her left side. Kelly checked her cervix and the cord was prolapsed. The babies heart rate dipped and Kelly kept her hand on the baby to keep her off the cord. They rushed her back and put her under general anesthesia and proceeded with an emergency cesarean. Craig was not able to go with her. At 4:25 Kelly came in and told us that the baby girl was born 4:20a.m. Mom and baby were doing fine. She also said that the baby looked just like her daddy! At 4:40, one of the other nurses came and got Craig and myself and took us to see little Sadie Jane. She weighed 7lb. 5oz. and 20inches and her apgars were 9 and 9.

I think I will forever be in shock from the experience, but even more-so, I know I will forever be grateful to my nurse Kelly for saving our baby’s life. So even though we missed the birth of our daughter (since I was asleep and Craig wasn’t allowed in the room) – we have her here with us, and that’s all that matters.

And I will never again write another birth plan!

getting wheeled into the hospital, when it was calm before the storm

meeting Sadie for the first time

and the blog is….back!

I started this blog as an easy way to update friends/family throughout our pregnancy. Updating the blog quickly turned into a weekly routine that I looked forward to working on and LOVED looking back on. I soon realized that I didn’t even care so much about how many people actually read the blog, it meant more to me that I had this amazing “record” of my pregnancy to one day share with my then baby-to-be. As I mentioned in my very first post, I was inspired to start this blog by my second cousin Laura Magid’s blog – The Land of Syd and Ben. She has this amazing collection of memories throughout the years of her kids growing up, starting with her first pregnancy. This was my plan. But starting with my birth plan, ALL plans went out the window (and then some!) with the birth of Sadie. I will go into further detail about the excitement (and chaos) of her birth in another post. So as I now sit here in Starbucks – the first time I’ve been away from Sadie and/or the house for a few hours – I’m attempting to put my blog “plan” back into action and catch up on the last 6 weeks….AND hopefully it won’t be another 6 weeks until I get a chance to do so again!

Baby Bump Week-By-Week slideshow

The idea behind the weekly baby bump photos was ultimately to create a slideshow that captured my baby bump growing each week until finally our daughter was born!
Craig worked on this video over that last 9 months, and it brings tears to my eyes watching it now that I can hold my little girl in my arms who was growing inside the bump – very surreal!

Enjoy the video….

Baby B Bump from stacy black on Vimeo.

If the embedded video does not appear above, you can access the video by clicking here.

Stay tuned for more posts and pictures of our life with Sadie Jane!

Baby Becher has arrived

We are SO excited to share that Sadie Jane was born on April 12th, at 4:20 AM, weighing in at 7lbs 5oz. I promise more pictures and updates to come once we’re back home and settled in with our baby girl Sadie!

notes from the nursery transformation

Our bags are packed, the to-do-before-baby list is completed, and the spare bedroom has been transformed into the nursery! (Now all we need is for baby Becher to arrive….T-2.5 weeks until her due date!)




3/21/13 – 3/27/13

Baby Becher is now the size of a WATERMELON!! Week 36 has brought me some relief, as the sciatic nerve pain seems to have subsided and my blood pressure has lowered. This week I had a routine Group B Strep Test which is common among pregnant women, and I’ll get the results next week. I will officially be full-term on April 4th, which means now we play the waiting game….

maternity photos

Thank you to Heather of Bella Fina Photography for these fun photos!!


3/14/13 – 3/20/13

The sciatic nerve pain has continued this week and on some occasions has gotten worse. It’s the strangest pain to try and describe — when it happens, it’s horrible — when it’s not happening, I’m perfectly fine. I try my best to stay off my feet as the pain seems to only happen when I’m standing, but it’s not exactly easy to sit on my butt all day (although a part of me thinks I should enjoy this time that I have of doing nothing while I can!)

To add to the sciatic nerve pain, my blood pressure has also started to increase this week. Due to this, as a precaution, the doctor wants me to come in 2x a week for a non-stress test to be performed. The test is non-invasive, and involves attaching two monitors to my stomach for about 20 minutes, one which monitors fetal heart rate and one which monitors contractions.

I also attended a breastfeeding class this week. I fully intend on breastfeeding for as long as I can, but I realize it doesn’t always work out (for mom or for baby). With that said, I did learn some helpful tips during the class to make the process easier, such as to NOT introduce a pacifier or bottle for the first 4 weeks; and that it’s highly recommended that the baby feed on breast milk ONLY for the first 6 months to receive the most benefits from this liquid gold, as they call it!

We had a fun maternity photo session with Heather from Bella Fina Photography this week. You can see the photos by clicking here.

Only 2 more weeks until I’m full-term!!!


3/7/13 – 3/13/13

This week baby Becher is the size of a large cantaloupe! Week 34 = pain. I’ve started to experience sciatic nerve pain, which is absolutely horrible. I mean horrible! While the pain is periodic and only lasts a few seconds, it is by far the worst pain I’ve ever experienced (says the woman who hasn’t gone through labor yet!) The pain is caused by the baby resting on my sciatic nerve, and when it happens, it sends a jolt of nerve pain down my leg that literally takes me down to my knees. The best way to help alleviate the pain from coming on is to stay off my feet, which has limited me to staying on the couch pretty much all day (good thing I finished my last wedding over the weekend!). I’m not officially on bed rest because there is no harm/danger to the baby, but for the meantime, I’m staying off my feet as much as possible. On the other hand, Craig has been busy this week “on his feet” getting ready for baby..!


2/28/13 – 3/6/13

Baby Becher is now the size of a PINEAPPLE, and weighing in at 4.9 pounds.

This week we met with our doula – Andrea Hall from Nurtured Birth – to go over our *birth plan and what her role will be once I go into labor.  She will provide non-medical support and relaxation techniques, help maintain a calm and peaceful birth environment, document highlights from the labor and delivery, and stay with me for a few hours after delivery to make sure I’m comfortable and settled.  As the day gets closer, I’m getting more and more nervous about the actual labor & delivery, but knowing that we’ll have a doula with us calms my nerves just a little bit.

*during my search for “how to write a birth plan” – I came across a hilarious birth plan that you can read by clicking here [disclaimer: you will likely appreciate this humor more-so if you have been pregnant before and written a birth plan yourself, otherwise you might not find it funny at all.]

We also visited a 3rd pediatrician’s office this week, and 3rd times the charm!  Wake Forest Pediatrics meets all of the criteria we were considering in our selection, and we were impressed with the additional medical capabilities available within their practice.

I want to give a special thank you to my Junior League of Raleigh friends who threw me a surprise baby shower over the weekend…So much fun — thank you ladies!!


my first belly laughs…{a reflection}

I was looking through old pictures on my phone today and I smiled ear-to-ear as I came across these photos:

While these might look like baby bump photos, they are actually “fake” baby bumps. I thought I would share with you the story behind the pictures; or what I refer to as my first {pregnancy} belly laughs.

Flashback to August 2012..

I joined Craig on a business trip to NYC about 10 days after my mom passed away because I didn’t feel like I was emotionally ready to be home alone. At this point, I was a mere 4 weeks pregnant and we had only shared the news with my dad & step-mom and Craig’s mom & dad.

While Craig was working, I was excited to spend time with my friend Lauren S., who was on a break from law- school and able to gallop around town with me. However, I knew that it would be hard for me to keep the pregnancy a secret from her, as I’m not usually one to turn down a glass of wine! And just as I thought, the minute she ordered a glass of wine at lunch and I ordered a ginger-ale, the secret was out. But surprisingly, it was very comforting to share the news with her (even though it was so early in the pregnancy) because I was still grappling internally about losing my mom and then finding out that I was pregnant the next day; my emotional yin and yang.

We soon found ourselves [one barely pregnant and one definitely not pregnant] venturing over to Destination Maternity and trying on clothes with the help of their fake “6-month pregnancy bump” strapped around our bellies. Thus, the pictures above!

But what you can’t see (or hear) from the photos is what they truly captured – my first good ole belly laugh since my mom had died. And in that moment, I was able to briefly put my sadness to the side and focus solely on the excitement of my pregnancy.

I can hardly believe how fast the time has flown by since these photos were taken, as I’m now approaching 33 weeks with a “real” baby bump way past the “fake” baby bump that we were pretending to have. And while I sit here and reflect on the past several months, I find myself again in an emotional yin and yang; as with each week that has passed by, I’ve gotten that much closer to the day that I will say hello to my daughter for the first time, and that much further away from the day that I said goodbye to my mom for the last time.


2/21/13 – 2/27/13

As we took this week’s baby bump picture, I was reminded of the first picture we took at 8 weeks pregnant, which is now the same number of weeks we have left until my due date!

Baby Becher is weighing in at 4 pounds this week, and she’s about 19 inches long. Speaking of weight and height, if you haven’t already done so, click here to add your guess to our online baby pool!

This week we visited 2 out of the 4 pediatrician offices on our list (which was created based on proximity to our house and if they are covered by our insurance). Jeffers Mann Pediatric seemed small when we walked in, but the pediatricians we met with were very informative about their role in our baby’s life – beginning with a visit to the hospital the day after she is born. The staff was super friendly and it seems like the type of pediatrician office that really gets to know your child/family on a more personal level. Growing Child Pediatrics was a much larger practice – which we thought we would like – but the waiting room was not divided into sick/well/newborn sections, and the pediatrician provided us with very little information. We did not get that warm and friendly feeling from the moment we walked in, but the deciding factor was that they do not visit newborns in the hospital, which is something that’s important to us. Is it obvious which one we like best so far?!

We also had our 32 week pre-natal appointment. Baby Becher’s heartbeat has dropped to 140bpm, which initially alarmed me, but we were reassured by the doctor that it’s normal for the heartbeat to slow down as we get closer to birth. We’ve also now “graduated” (as the doctor said) to the point where we carry around with us a copy of my prenatal visit records to assure that I always have them with me to bring to the hospital when I go into labor.

Our little honeydew (yes, she’s now the size of a honeydew, which is the first of the fruit comparisons that has made me say “wow, that’s big!”) is taking up so much room that she’s squishing my lungs, make it harder for me to breathe. And don’t even get me started on the difficulty I’m now having turning from side to side when I’m laying down, or trying to get myself up off the couch!


2/14/13 – 2/20/13

This week we went back to school…labor & delivery school, that is! We attended a 2-day weekend intense labor and delivery education class at the hospital where our baby will be born. The class covered just about everything from the few days leading up to going into labor through the few days following the delivery, as well as a tour of the maternity ward. While some of the class was repetitive of things I already knew, there was definitely a wealth of information that was new to me (and Craig). For example, we weren’t aware of the benefits to the baby that come along with waiting to cut the umbilical cord until the blood stops flowing (which takes about 5 minutes) versus cutting it within the first few seconds. Also, I was already aware of the many positions (thanks to the Business of Being Born documentary) that a woman can be in to work with gravity while delivering her baby versus the position typically portrayed for giving birth. However, I thought that I was limited to the flat on my back position because I plan on getting an epidural, but I learned in the class about alternative position options that work even with an epidural. Those are just two examples of the many things we learned over the weekend and hopefully some of them will come in handy when it’s game time!

notes from the nursery transformation

We’ve made some fun progress on baby Becher’s nursery….

the crib:

the bookcase:

the [black-out] shades:

Just a few more things and the nursery transformation will soon be completed…stay tuned!!


2/7/13 – 2/13/13

I can’t believe we’re at week 30! 10 weeks to go until our official due date, and only 7 weeks to go until baby Becher is full-term. She is now the size of a head of lettuce and weighing it at 3.2 pounds. Craig was out of the country this week for business, and so of-course I was nervous about something going wrong with the pregnancy or having another unexpected situation (ie: ER visit) this week, but luckily it was smooth sailing! I had my 30 week pre-natal appointment and my fundal height (or in layman’s terms, my stomach) is measuring in exactly where it’s supposed to be at 30 centimeters and baby’s heartbeat is thumping at a normal rate. I also learned that my gestational diabetes test results came back normal, so no worries on that end. And per the doctor’s instructions, we started looking into pediatricians in the area and scheduled appointments to meet with 3 different practices over the next few weeks. Check out some updates from the nursery transformation here.


1/31/13 – 2/6/13

Baby Becher is now the size of a large butternut squash and she’s weighing in at 3 pounds! I started counting her kicks this week, which is important for me track on a daily basis because movement is one of the best signs of a baby’s well-being. Within a two hour window, I should feel her move (kick, elbow, twist, turn, etc..) at least 10 times. Although this usually happens within the first 15 minutes, as she is constantly on the move!

My baby shower was this week (see pictures here), and it was incredibly special to be surrounded by my friends and family! Thank you to everyone who literally showered me with gifts for baby Becher, but most of all – thank you for showering me with so much love!!

And how fun is this shirt that Craig’s mom made for him?

baby shower love

I often reflect on here about not having my mom anymore and how sad I am that my daughter will never get to meet her Grandma Jane.  Some days are harder than others, but everyday I miss her and long for the love that only a mother can give. But this past Saturday, February 2nd – while surrounded by my friends, my family, and my mom’s friends – I was reminded of how much love is around me and how lucky I am to have such special people in my life.  Thank you to my step-mom for throwing me such a beautiful baby shower, giving me the best gift of all – joy in my heart!


fun with the soon-to-be grandparents

My dad and step-mom {soon-to-be baby Becher’s Grandpa and Nana) were in town last weekend for the Duke vs. Maryland basketball game.  Of course, Duke won!

Going to this game is an annual tradition for the two of us, as Craig is a Maryland alum and I’m a Duke alum. I do have to admit that it felt a little strange to be back on the Duke campus and also be pregnant!

After the game I casually asked my dad and step-mom if they would like to feel the baby kick. You would not believe how fast they jumped up and moved over to where I was on the couch to get their hands on my belly! I’m so happy that Craig captured this picture-perfect moment:

Craig’s mom and dad {soon-to-be baby Becher’s Grandma and Poppy} were in town this weekend for my baby shower.  In response to one of my previous blog posts where I mentioned that Craig was feeling a little left out of the pregnancy process, they decided to throw him a mini-shower the night before the real one.  The pictures speak for themselves, Craig was all smiles while opening gifts for his little baby girl! (on a side note: the photo timestamp is off by 1 month)

We had such an enjoyable past 2 weekends with the grandparents-to-be!


1/24/13 – 1/30/13

HELLO to the 3rd trimester! This week marks the beginning of the last trimester. We had our 28 week prenatal appointment which included my second glucose screening for gestational diabetes (results will be back next week) and an ultrasound to check on the choroid plexus cysts previously present in our baby’s brain during the 18 week check.  I’m VERY happy and VERY relieved to share the news that the cysts have disappeared! We also learned that baby Becher is no longer in a breached position. Trimester 3 is off to a good start!


notes from the nursery transformation

I’m so excited about bringing our nursery ideas to life, and I thought it would be fun to share our progress along the way!

First, a look at what we started with:

BEFORE: an empty bedroom perfect for miscellaneous storage

And the transformation begins…

This week the walls were painted, new carpet was installed, and the chandelier was hung.

THE WALLS are a light purple color with a darker purple scalloped border at the top (which will soon have a green button detail added to it):

THE CARPET has a lilac and cream lattice-pattern:

THE CHANDELIER is called the Crystorama and I just love it!

We did a lot this week, but it’s just the beginning:

…stay tuned for more notes from the nursery transformation!


The highlight of Craig’s week (I’m sure of it): adding another bee!

1/17/13 – 1/23/13

27 weeks down….{only} 10 more to go until I’m full term! Baby Becher is now the size of a large head of cauliflower and she’s weighing in at a whopping 2.5 pounds.

Our nursery inspiration started to come to life this week (as seen in my Notes From The Nursery post). I also started organizing the nursery closet, and the first project was to wash (using our new baby approved detergent) and hang all of the adorable clothes that we have gotten over the past few months.

As I snapped this picture above, I was reminded of something that my mom had written 28 years ago in my own baby book (which I found a few days earlier while unpacking a box from my mom’s house).

I imagine that when my mom wrote this, just as I was doing while snapping the picture of baby Becher’s clothes, she was admiring all of my cute outfits – which she had listed out on the same page with a description of each. I don’t know if I lived up to the high “hopes” my mom had for me to always be the best dressed, but that’s not the point. What I love about the fact that she wrote this, is that at the time she was experiencing the same feelings and excitement that I’m now experiencing about having a baby girl. And even though my mom isn’t here with me now to share in the joy of my soon-to-be daughter, it gives me a special feeling knowing that something as simple as getting excited about dressing my little girl, was something my mom was just as excited about for her little girl!


1/10/13 – 1/16/13

This week I took my last flight/trip before baby B {and for a while} to NYC and spent a few days enjoying the city that I love (and miss!) with Craig. I had a great time visiting with some of my Duke girls, who I also miss dearly.

We met with our baby nurse who will be coming from NYC {baby nurses don’t exist the same way in NC like they do in Manhattan, and believe it or not – it’s actually cheaper to have one come from NYC rather than hire one from an agency in NC!} Her name is Gale, and she’s originally from Trinidad. I loved when she asked us, “do you know anything about taking care of babies?”, in which we responded “no, not at all” and she excitedly responded “oh good, you’re the best kind, I can’t wait to teach you everything!” We. can’t. wait. either.
Gale will be living with us for a few months once baby Becher is born, and since we aren’t able to have my mom here to help us out, we feel so fortunate to be able to have her here with us {as well as my mother-in-law and step-mom [for a few days!]}, to teach us EVERYTHING!

Also this week, we received a special delivery from Pottery Barn Kids:

Madison Crib

madison changing table

Next week, the nursery painting and carpet installation begins…!

my pregnancy buddies

As I mentioned in my WEEK 16 post, two of my girlfriends are also pregnant and both are due within 2 weeks of baby Becher. Susan, who I’ve been friends with since elementary school, is expecting her second baby. And even though she lives in Virginia, it’s been very comforting to have her as my text/email/phone (long-distance) pregnant buddy. Lindsey, who I met a year ago (when I first moved to NC) through her brother who I went to high school with, has since become one of my best friends in the Raleigh area. She is also expecting her second baby, and since we just so happen to live around the corner from each other, we go to the same OBGYN and our babies will both be delivered at WakeMed.

Lindsey came over this week (with her adorable 2 year old son, Dylan) to try out our at-home-doppler (baby Cote’s heartbeat is a healthy 147 bpm!) and to watch The Business of Being Born, a documentary series that has definitely shed some light and opened my eyes to the different choices and routes taken during labor. I highly recommend watching this if you are pregnant.

And of course, we couldn’t resist taking a baby bump photo of us together!

Stacy at 26 weeks, Lindsey at 24 weeks

How cute is this little boy? Baby Becher’s closet is filled with just about anything & everything related to baby. {I’m waiting (and hoping) for this so-called nesting phase to kick in so I can organize it!} Anyway, there’s a small chair stored in her closet, which was handmade by my grandmother and then given to my mom, and now will be passed down to baby Becher. Dylan went in the closet, found a book among the mess, and plopped himself down in the chair — so precious!

Lindsey is in trouble if baby boy Cote is even half as cute as his big brother – it’s hard to say no to this face!

Dylan checking out the “Beeeees!”